Goodness, it has been a long time since I wrote in this blog. Not because I haven't been thinking of you, Ben Miller. I think of you all the time. Out of the blue, sometimes, I will remember something funny you said or did. I may even think of some place we have gone, of something we may have done. I know when the Killoughs are here they probably get tired hearing me talk about you. Debbie and Duane may have gotten tired of hearing about you last week end.        We have had rain, cold weather, and today was so nice. We went to the Galleria with Bro. Honea and Aubrey, then he took us to Dreamland for ribs. I really did eat too much. Tonight we ate cheese and crackers. Missing you, love you......BILL-EE

It has turned cold, supposed to be frost tonight. I haven't been able to get by the cemetery in several days. When I drive by there the ache in my heart is unbearable, it seems, yet I have to keep going. Thank you for the prayers you prayed for me, I know they have and will be a big help, in my going, in my smiling. I miss you so much and I love you.........BILL-EE

I got  my driver's license today. I had to stand in line for one and one half hours. I did get two loads of laundry done before I left for the court house.           I got to thinking how you and I planned to really retire and do some traveling. My heart was breaking and breaking more, then I remembered hearing you ask the Lord to just come and get you. That caused more tears, more heart ache, just thinking of how sick you were. Yet, you never complained. You wanted to stick around with me, but you got to tired of the blackness, of not feeling like even trying to walk anymore. Honey, so glad I know you were ready to meet the Lord, ready for Him to come after you. He did, and I am alone, but I know that you are well and happy now. No more blackness, no more sickness. Someday, maybe I can handle all this better. I miss you, and I love you..........BILL-EE

November 4, 2012. Another year almost gone. I have been without the comfort of you dear heart, for more than a year now. I still miss you and more than likely I always will. Regardless of what the future holds for me, I know I will be missing you. I wanted to stop by the cemetery on my way home from church, but thought better of it.          Debbie and Duane came from GA this week-end. I, of course, enjoyed them. We met Dialyn and Glen at the Lone Star (Homewood) last evening. We had a grand ole time as always. I remembered what you would always eat when we went there, thought about how big the sweet potato you ordered always was. That is what you liked about that place, big sweet potatoes. One of your most favorite foods.           I am about to go up stairs and eat a bite of something. First I Want to say I love you..........BILL-EE

As I was at the church  awhile  ago. My thoughts, just before I left there was about you. I could almost see you sittng there in that wheel chair, hearing you as you worshipped our God. Thinking of all the things our former pastors wrote about you. Hearing what the pastors, former and present said about you. Made me realize all over again how God had blessed me. He gave us 60 years, 9 months, and almost thirteen days together. Now that is a blessing, we never had any real serious troubles, no problems. Our children, all 4 of them, were truly God sents. I miss you so very much, I think of you so very much, constantly. I love you, my Beloved Ben Miller............BILL-EE   I wanted to add I am about to eat one of your favorites....cornbread and buttermilk......Thinking of you.

It is "brrr" cold weather around here. I have been so busy trying to save on electricity and now gas. They put in new gas lines here. I had to pay for the valve, $50.00. Okay, got that done still haven't seen a water and gas bill for last month.           I went by the cemetery today. Remembered how hot it was still this time last year. Today I had to wear a coat.          I miss you my beloved Ben. Nothing new about that. The hole is still in my heart. I love you............BILL-EE

We had a great time at church today. Janelle and J.C. got here yesterday about twelve. We went to Habenaro's and ate mexican. Friday night I had Italian. Today, it was good old food, ham, turkey and dressing, beans, chicken and dumplings, etc.        I miss you, I miss having you here, I miss hearing BILL-EE. I am going to keep on keeping on as you would tell me to do. Ben Miller, Beloved, I love you.........BILL-EE