3/31/12

Here I am again. Not an awful lot to say. I ate breakfast, did my devotion. Of course, I had already put the living room in order. I did some vacuuming, got a shower, looked at fb. By this time it was past four 0'clock. I was ready to get on my way. I stopped by the mail box and went on.     I stopped by the cemetery for 10 minutes or so. When I got back in the car, I could not get the transmission in gear. I would turn the car off for a few minutes and try again. This went on for several minutes, fifteen or more. I was getting frantic. I needed to pick up my medicine at Winn Dixie and I was afraid they would be closed. There was no one I could  call to help me. Bro Honea was supposed to be in MS I didn't have any numbers to call anyone else. I simply could not budge that transmission, so I prayed. Finally, I saw a hearse coming out from the funeral home. I didn't know if it would come my way but it did. I turned my motor off again, he came up beside me, I rolled down my window and he stopped. I asked if he had someone in the hearse, he said no. I told him my problem, so he got out and helped me. I said I have been praying for help. He said, "God always has a ram in the bush". I thanked him and spent some time thanking the Lord and went on my way. I got the med, drove to All Star to get a bite to eat. They were closed, so I go back to Arby's. Honey, I had forgotten march has 31 days, so today is the last day of March. Tomorrow, April 1st is Sunday so I need to start getting ready for bed. I want to say that I miss you much and Honey, I love you.............BILL-EE

3/30/12

Here it is last day of March 2012. Seems like only yesterday it was 1st day of 2012. It also seems like you have only been gone for a short time, sometimes it's like you are in your chair. Then there are the times when I feel as if you have been gone for an eternity.        Dialyn and I slept late this a.m. We stayed up so late last night. I told her and Glen we had solved the worlds problems, we could now go to bed. I stayed there until one thirty.   Before I got on 65 it was pouring rain. It rained so hard I could hardly see. About the time I got into Jefferson county it was clear. I could only say thank you Jesus, I can see good again. It had not rained at all. It did start raining right after I got home. Came a good shower, guess the grass will be knee high in a week or so. Bill cut the grass first of March but we have had rain several times, so the grass grows.     Lisa is still sick, been sick for near two weeks.       Duane called, Sharon was at the ER in Brunswick today. The Dr. there told her he had no idea, what a cop out. He gave her meds for the pain. She will go to her old Dr. there next week.       I told Duane to sell your (his) boat if he wanted to. It does no one any good just setting out in the weather. For sentimental reasons I hate to see it gone, but rather see it used. Still it will be o.k. if he can find a buyer for it. I do know for sure how you felt about that boat, you had many good days fishing in her.         Honey, I miss you so much, wish you were still here. You probably would say to me "Wish you were here" it's such a beautiful place. Ben Miller, my loving husband, I love you..............BILL-EE

3/29/12

Honey, it is getting late already ten 0'clock. Of course I have written later than this.       I am at the Spences', going to stay the night here. I had planned to go home, but Glen, sounding like Ben Miller says I don't think you need to stay at our house tonight. He said I don't think you need to be out driving this late at night by youself. I answered, okay Ben Miller I hear you.          We Have been talking for the past almost two hours. So I am not writing much tonight. I will say that I miss you no matter what or where. I will say, too, I love you.............BILL-EE

3/28/12

March 28th, our youngest granddaughter's birthday. She was 22 years old. Seems like only yesterday she was toddling around.     Today I needed to pick up my medicines. I also wanted to go to Walmart to pick up a few things. I went to Winn Dixie first, only got one med, they didn't call the Dr. I needed new prescriptions on 2 of the meds. Anyway I left there, headed to Walmart, still had 3 hours until church time. I don't know what I was thinking when I left the house as early as I did. I walked around the store for an hour and half. Even ran into Ricky Seagle, the manager there, and chatted with him for a bit. I finally checked out and I decided to come on home, put away my purchases, then leave for church.         Honey, I went by the cemetery for a few minutes. There was a funeral going on there, so I didn't stay long. The cap was still in place just like I put it yesterday. I did notice the cap along with the fish on it had a sign on it "gone fishing". I thought of all the many people who, when they heard you had died would say "he's just gone fishing". Including a couple of our former pastors. I need to figure out how to get the cap on the marker when they get it there.         Of course I do miss you. I think of you all the time. I sometimes look at your picture and think how can he be gone? I still do look to the mountain from whence cometh my help, each and ever day. Honey, I love you...............BILL-EE

3/27/12

March is close to gone, hardly any wind today. Well, Honey, I mopped the kitchen, folded some of Allison's clothes, along with the normal cleaning. Still can't say that I did alot of work.        I kept thinking of going to the cemetery, it was such a beautiful day. Finally about six fifteen I started looking around for something to take with me. No one would ever guess what I came up with. I was in the pantry room, I saw the cap Sydney gave you for your birthday. It was the one with Ben written on the bib. It has a gone fishing, with some fish , a bait bucket, and like a fishing rod. I can't remember right now exactly what all was on it. Anyway I took that cap to the grave, I put it there, stuck a couple of the little flags on it to keep it from blowing away. I then put the little clown down on it. At least I did find something to take there today. It didn't look bad.      Duane called this evening. We talked for maybe an hour. You would really be worried if you knew he was (and has been) by himself since last fall. I remember how you worried about him. You couldn't see, but you had a friend (fishing buddy) who had several heart attacks and you remembered Jim died at a young age. So because of the heart, you were very concerned about our son. He is going to be alright. I believe he knows that God is his ever present help. Of course, I had to do a little "preaching" at him. Honey, I want to say again that I miss you so, only God knows, He alone knows my pain, knows the ache of my heart. Also Honey, I love you...........BILL-EE

3/26/12

Honey, this has been another beautiful day. I have been up and down the stairs all day, seems like I haven't accomplished much. I did a load of laundry, all folded and put away. That is the way I usual always do it. It is getting cool again, it warms up during the day.  I get to feeling tired after half a dozen trips on those stairs.      Debbie called today, we had a 'phone visit. It was nice talking to her, she had helped Duane and Sharon over the week end. Sharon is moving to Brunswick for now. I suppose Duane will live in the apartment at Deb's and Tot's, don't know what else he can do. Lisa also called she was sick last week, the Dr. called her this a.m. told her to stay at home for another few days. She really is not feeling well right now.      I still  can't use the bathroom(small one). Bro Honea says he can fix it but he has so much work to do. I can manage with one bathroom, as long as I have the other commode working.       Honey, I had some bad time this a.m. I got to thinking about you and it was one of the bad times. I can only say that I miss you so much and Honey, I love you...........BILL-EE

3/25/12

Honey, I have missed you today. Sometimes at church, I really miss you, I  miss being able to reach you. I loved holding your hand while we sat in church, listening to the word. I loved hearing you say, "amen" or maybe "halleujah", or maybe hearing you say,"stop singing, let Bro Honea preach now".          After church tonight we had pintos and corn bread. One of the ladies cooked them and brought them for a snack. They were very good. You would have loved them. You would have preferred butter milk with your corn bread.        Other than going to church and going to the chinese restaurant afterwards, I didn't do much. We stayed at the restaurant until about three o'clock. I barely had time to get ready to get back to church this evening.       The church is doing great, we aren't seeing much growth right now but we are still growing in the Lord. I mean all the people there.    Jared Hall has really been a blessing to Bro Honea and to the rest of the church. I was so happy to see that kid move back here and get back "on fire" for God.      Kai has gone back home, he was fine while here with me. Of course, I had to say to him, as I use to say to his dad and aunt you will not talk to me like that. He is too much into the computer. Oh well, he is Dialyn's and Glen's responsibility right now. Going to get ready for bed soon, didn't get to sleep until about three this a.m.     Will say again, I miss you and I love you...........BILL-EE