Today is 7/22. All day I have remembered 9/22/11, your last day alive, Ben. What a day, lunch brought to us by Neil Honea. You ate a good lunch, but didn't eat much at dinner time. You complained of a stomache ache as you had on 9/21. I took you upstairs and got you in bed by about eight thirty. I needed to soak and re-wrap my toes. We had not so good evening, anyway got you to ER about eleven forty-five or a little passed. They didn't call me back 'til twelve thirty. You vomited again just as I got to the room. What a night, my heart ached, I knew you were sick. It was 9/23 before you got to a room, on the fifth floor. At twelve thirty-five you left me. I really didn't know how I would ever make it one day. I kept thinking I can't live without my soul mate. So far I have made it for almost 22 months. It hasn't been easy, but Lisa reminded me 3 weeks later how that I had to live. I still had a reason, the children, the grands, and the greats. I don't see any of them much, but now I think, my Ben would want me to try and be happy. I have to work at it, since I have been alone but the little job helps, and I look to the mountains from whence my help comes. I miss you so much and I love you and I say daily Lord, help me to endure this B I G loss. Yes, I sat at the table this morning and wept again and felt the hole that is in my heart. I love you------------BILL-EE