It has been two whole years since we saw you put in the ground. I do know that it was just your flesh and bones, your spirit had already departed yet that was you to me. Duane and I have been to the cemetery each day this week. We put new flowers in the vase. Duane wanted to buy the flowers this time.            Honey, I miss you still so much. I don't know words to say how much I miss you nor how much I love you. I have not been writing on the blog except on these counting months.          I still have to remind myself how you would tell me to stop crying, regardless of what I was crying about. I mostly try to keep all my crying private but afraid I haven't always done good at that this week.         I don't do much, I keep the laundry up, do the floors, keep the kitchen clean, etc. I worked at the day care for several months this summer but that job is over now. I go to church 3 times a week. Janelle and J.C. still coming on the 4th Sunday each month. They stay here. I enjoy having them.         Debbie came down Monday night. She stayed until Tuesday late afternoon. Enjoyed her visit as always.        Ben Miller I still do not know why you had to go, I wanted to go too but that was not for me to say. I will keep on as I know you would want me to. I am so happy Lisa told me she couldn't lose me, too. At that time I really didn't care to try to keep going. Now I am thankful for each day as I always had been and will be. I miss you and I love you............BILL-EE