What is this? Last month I could not get into this blog, though I did try. Neither computer would let me in, so weird.          Ben Miller, you left me 26 months ago. It was about this time 12:35 p.m. Oh, how I have missed you all these months, I keep smiling and keep being thankful for the days God has granted to me. This is what you would have me do, knowing who you were.           I have needed to have you here so badly, needed someone to talk to. You were my sounding board, as I was yours. I know I can talk to the Lord about anything and I do. Sometimes I miss hearing what you would have to say about something that caused me to feel bad. Even if you said something that would make me feel worse, right then, it always "stuck in my craw", as you would say; in the long haul I would take your advice about any thing.         I still am doing the same as always, cleaning, cooking sometimes, doing laundry, going to church and sometimes doing grocery shopping. So much is happening these days, I am not happy with but I will and do "Keep looking to the hills".        I had a vacation, for me, I went to Michigan with Lisa and Debbie, a couple of weeks ago. Lisa's migraines had gotten so bad, she went there to a clinic, she has been better this week, praise the Lord for that.         It will be Thanksgiving in a few more days, then Christmas will be looming even closer. I have to admit the holidays doesn't bring me much, if any, cheer. Without having you, here with me, well it just isn't the same. You were my constant, Ben Miller and I miss you much. I love you and I am glad you don't read these blogs, may keep you from resting in peace. I know you are enjoying yourself and that is what I want for you. Love you.............BILL-EE