Here it is, another year about gone. I miss you as always; I try to stay busy but that doesn't keep me from thinking of you and missing you, Ben Miller. I have made it for twenty seven  months as of 12/23. I've got past two Thanksgivings, two Christmas' and about to be, as of tomorrow, 12/31 will be two year endings. I wonder sometimes will there ever be a time that I won't miss you?           Duane has been sick for a week now, we spent Christmas alone ate left overs. If something doesn't change we will have a New Year, just the two of us. I hope he is alot better tomorrow.           I still stop by the cemetery quite often. I go there for me, I do know that you aren't there. You are singing and shouting in a place of Paradise.           Finally got all the decoration down, even got the kitchen floor mopped today. My vacumn cleaner is broken I may try to get another small one for upstairs. I hate lugging a vacumn up and down the stairs.         As I already said I miss you so much, how I would love to be able to tell you all that has happened in the past twenty seven months. Oh, yes I do still look to the hills from whence comes my help, thankful I know I can do that. Thankful I know you prayed for me to be able to do that when you left me.         I love you.............BILL-EE