Nineteen months ago you were laid to rest for the last time. I miss you so much, and think of you all the time. Little things will come to mind, tears will come to my eyes, and so many other things will happen to remind me of our life together. I am thankful for our many years of marriage. I know I spent my life with you, and wish you were still with me, even in the condition you were in. I know also that you were tired, and really hated the blindness and being unable to do anything. I heard you tell the Lord to come and get you because you were tired. I have tried these months to live the way I think you would want me to be. I can laugh and keep smiling even when my heart is breaking and I feel like crying, screaming, not eating, etc. You would be saying eat, smile, be who you always were. Sometimes I have a struggle doing that, but I shall have to be me. Lord, help me daily to live my life with a smile, regardless of my feelings. Ben Miller I miss you and I love you.............BILL-EE

So much has happened since I last wrote in the blog.  Lisa had the eye surgery, I stayed at the Haynes from Sunday evening until Wednesday late. The next Friday or maybe Saturday a.m. I went back out there and stayed until Wednesday again. Then back on Friday for the night.           Duane came down on Friday, Brandon had the accident. Duane and I spent the day Saturday there, Carla and Linda came up. We all left about twelve a.m.  They all stayed here, Duane went to church Sunday a.m. I didn't go I was still tired. We all wenet back to hospital soon after lunch, stayed until past six. Duane and I went to church, came by Arby's brought food home to eat. Then this a.m. we went back to hospital. They did surgery on Brandon.            He had a bad freak accident, Butch is beside himself with worry. They do think the sugery was successful as possible, under the circumstance. Duane left here about five p.m. going back to GA.            Beside all the happenings, I have missed  Ben Miller so much. The corresponding dates as your last week on earth. So not my best week, but I did get to see several nephews, I hadn't seen for quite a few years now. Also got to talk to Michael a dab today. Also, I really realized something good about living for God, and praying for people. Oh, how I would love to share it all with you. So I miss you double now. 9/22/11 was your last day alive, you left me on 9/23/11.           I have told you the biggest things that has happened this month, so far. I am still working, am enjoying it very much. I am so thankful that I am able to do that. God is so good.           I miss you and love you. I have made it to cemetery several times this month; in spite of bad weather, work, and traumas.            Love you.............BILL-EE

I made it thru my second Easter without you. I missed you, thought of you almost continuously. Dialyn, Glen, Kia, and Kamilah came to church. I went home with them and ate easter lunch at their house. I left there about eight or so coming back home.            Clara and Ulmer are here, Clara's sister is having surgery tomorrow. they will probably be here for the week. I don't have to work until Friday, so it shouldn't be too bad having them here.          Today was our Debbie's birthday. Sis Honea took me to lunch, she said we were celebrating Deb's day.            I stopped at the cemetery today on the way home. I try to stop by there, when the weather isn't so bad. Seems like I simply have to stop by as much as possible. Of course, I do it for me.           I dreamed about you this a.m. You said you had come for me, and took my hand and we floated upward, upward.  It was quite a great feeling, but when we got to where I thought we were going, you left me. With a sad look you told me you would have to leave me and I didn't see you anymore. Seems like I did see Lynn and Merle, yes I remember now I saw them they were working at something. Anyway, I loved seeing you, and the sensation of floating up, holding your hand. I need to get to bed so I will go for this time. I miss you still so much and Honey, I love you...........BILL-EE