Oct. 14, 2011 @ 6:44 p.m.

Ben a little early to be writing, haven't eaten yet, don't know what I'll eat. Not ever hungry but I promised myself I would eat regardless, know that you would want me to eat. You were forever telling me to eat. I ate most of a chicken pot pie yesterday, took me a few times eating but I made it. Been working on the checkbook, don't know how I balanced last month. Remember what a time I had, Honey I miss you so much, I never knew such pain, I remember hearing you pray all during the day, I knew you prayed for me, oh to hear BILL-EE.Love you