Oct. 9, 2011 @ 9:12 p.m.

Ben here I am,I thought I would fall asleep like I did yesterday don't know why I couldn't. I got up for a drink, lay down again I can not get to sleep, now I am beginning to fret. So much to get done, and how will I get it done? Sorry honey, I sort of had a habit passing everything by you. Not liking this, not sleeping I feel like oh,oh,oh, get up and do something. I know what needs to be done, but I am having a time here getting this little bit done. For now I will say I miss you so much...but can not get my note done.....Love you BIL LIE