Today was busy. I left home about ten thirty or eleven o'clock this a.m. I went to New Life Church where Lisa and Ashley were helping a friend decorate. I didn't do much to help, I watched them work. They worked for a few hours, then everyone went home for an hour or so. I went to Lisa's. Later we went back to the church for a graduation party. It was fun.         One of Lisa's long ago friends, who lives in Texas, was in Birmingham. Lisa was so excited getting to see her again. They have been friends since early 80's. I enjoyed seeing her again, too. Meeting two of her children and her husband. That made the evening even nicer. Lisa had invited them to come to the party.          I am home (alone) as always. I started back to Lisa's for awhile but changed my mind. Had stopped at Publix to get a few items, while waiting for them I changed my mind and came on home.          How to answer all the people who will ask me (always) how are you doing? What do I say, I think of my husband almost constantly. Thinking of him now, but I'll say I am doing o.k. I am not being untruthful, I call myself doing o.k. all the time. I have to be doing o.k. I won't try to explan my true feelings, besides well. I only know that I am always missing you and that I love you, Ben Miller............BILL-EE