The last day of June, 2012. The a/c working without a stop. It was 87 degrees upstairs at about four thirty. All one can do is endure it. Ha, my power bill will be over the top next month. I hope it doesn't go beyond $300.00,  I have stayed indoors all day. I did go to the mailbox but it was past five o'clock when I did that. I thank God for the window unit in the den, also thank Tot Darden and Todd Hester for putting it in there, quite a few years ago. It has worked more in the past three days than any other time. No need to complain, nothing to do but be thankful to be here.         I am so glad I have a few tv dinners, sure would hate to have to turn on my stove. Ben Miller could always stand heat much better than I. Honey, you worked outside for so many years. It never seemed to bother you so much to go home to a hot house. I, on the other hand, worked in an air conditioned office, So I could be quite miserable. Finally got you to buy a window unit for our house on Avenue T.          I miss you, I miss all the things you did to make my life comfortable and happy. I have some handy man work that needs to done. I hope I can handle it. Hope you had the right size screw driver. I love you..........BILL-EE

Tomorrow will be the last day of June, 2012. My, how the time seems to fly by us. It is so hot, my upstairs hallway said 85 degrees today. The a/c was going full blast, every bedroom had a fan on running at top speed. I would almost suffocate going up the stairs. I have stayed down in the den most of the day. I have a window unit down here, it really stays so nice and cool, I don't even have it on top speed.         Zoey spent the night, I took her home, we picked Vickie up and went back over to Morgan Road for her car. We had lunch at the Pizza Hut there, the buffet. I ate a salad, pasta, several slices pizza, and garlic bread. Vickie wanted to buy, since I had been helping her out. Zoey and I stopped at the cemetery. It is so hot, and I can hardly stand to go in there in the afternoons. Glad I can say I didn't complain about the cold last winter. The weather is one thing man hasn't figured out what to do with..        I am definitely not depressed or anything, but I guess I am just getting resolved to the fact that I am totally, all the time, alone. I guess that is a good way to be, never have expectations and you won't ever be disappointed. I tried to get my Honey to not ever expect company this past year. So many times he would tell me we will have some company this week. I would say, did anyone tell you they were coming? No, but I am sure they will be here. Poor dear, he never complained that no one showed up .I was resolved then and now I am resolved again. A good way to be.        Honey, I still miss you, I can not not miss you. I can not not love you..........BILL-EE

It has been a busy day. Vickie called me this a.m. and asked if I could go to get her and take her to the doctor. I got ready and drove out there. She was at Morgan Road, Waffle House. She was sick last night, actually she was in pain. I drove her down to Bessemer, a medical center, of the Foundry. He gave her a prescription and told her not to go back to work for a few days. She will be off work until Monday. She asked if Zoey could come out here and stay with me for the night.          I now have Zoey in the bath. I did a load of laundry now have them in the dryer. I let Zoey watch an old children's movie I had. Anyway I am quite tired out. I fixed us something to eat. Zoey is playing in the tub, so I figured it would be my only chance to write a note tonight.         I pray I can sleep good tonight. I will take her to day care in the a.m. I am not sure when but we will have to go out to get Vickie's car before Sunday.         Even these busy days doesn't keep me from missing you, Honey, and I love you..........BILL-EE

Just got home from church. I actually went to Dairy Queen with Sis Honea, ate a cheese dog and fries, got a small drink. That's the reason it is late.              Today I stopped at the cemetery, so glad I did. I had got new flowers for the vase. They had taken the old flowers off. The florist found an angel, she said she thought they were out of them. This is supposed to be a solar light at night. I just hope it will work. I don't want to go in there at night to check it out. Guess I will not ever know.        I got my kitchen swept and mopped today. The first day I have felt like doing anything much.         Honey, I miss you. I can't say I'm lonely, even though I am alone. When I had you here with me I knew you were here. You would be sitting in your chair, in the evenings after we ate you were going to be listening to the gospel music. We sometimes talked and sometimes we were quiet just enjoying the music. I will always have an ache, in my heart, just from missing you and for thinking of all the questions you could help me answer.         I look at the two pictures on this blog, the one you had such a big smile. The other one, now that I look at it I realize more clearly that you never really felt well after the kidney surgery. It was only a few days later, you were back in the hospital, that you would tell me you had talked to Micheal. Micheal, the angel, you would say. Dear one I am so glad I had you for more than a year after that. Altho I can truthfully say I was afraid. You would tell me every day, "I told Micheal".          Ben I miss you and I love you. I am trying to find a way to somehow move on. I don't know how, but I am praying Lord help me. I love you.........BILL-EE

I keep trying to make it a day at a time without you my Ben. I have been on FB for awhile this evening, with Debbie, Duane and Donnie. It was a therapeutic time for me. Sometimes I really don't know what to do with myself. Oh, Charlotte Biscotto got in on that, too. She was talking about the picture we were talking around.         Today I did a load of laundry. I took clothes upstairs that I had already done. Other than that I didn't do much. It was so easy to get chores taken care of when you were here with me. Now mostly it seems like why bother?          I am wondering if you knew about the indian tree cigars our kids tried out. Guess they were being normal kids. Something about the coke machine at the gas station. I am waiting to hear more about that.         I didn't sleep well last night. It was nearly four o'clock before I got to sleep, don't know what the problem was except I get to thinking so much about our lives the past few years.  Nine months ago today I saw you laid in the cold, dark earth. Now you are gone from me and I still do feel lost      Ben Honey, I miss you and I love you...........BILL-EE

I got up this a.m. at six o'clock for prayer time. I went back to bed about seven o'clock. The Killough's left around six thirty o'clock. I finally did go back to sleep for awhile. I didn't make much progress at getting anything done around here.       I actually listened to WXJC for a while tonight, that was some progress for me. It is so hard to do, listening makes me miss my life, with my Honey, because that is what our evenings consisted of. The good ole gospel music. I have to try to learn to be able to do these things without having such an ache, in my heart. This is a very hard thing for me, especially when I am alone and I most always am alone.        I know I need to try to put everything in prospective; it is so hard to do when there is still so much pain in my life. I still know that life goes on and that God is still God. That does not heal the pain of missing you, my Ben. Nine months ago we were still at the visitation site, trying to get a bite of food down. Oh, Honey, I wish I could ask you, what can I do? I wonder what you would answer me, what would your words be? I am so thankful; that I heard you pray for me those last days, that is probably now what carries me through the days without you. I miss you and I love you.......BILL-EE

What a blessed day we had today. Two great church services, two good meals, at church. Always our Good God there to give out blessings. Sometimes tears, sometimes smiles but always He is Great.       We did have the kind of church services that we always enjoyed. I felt healing in my lungs tonight, God is able when He is ready He will do it. If I am not healed I will still love my Healer, even as you did, Ben Miller.        The Killoughs will be leaving tomorrow a.m. They will be back in four weeks. It is a settled thing this summer they are scheduled to be here on the four week of the month. They will be staying here at our house.      It is late already. The Killoughs are already in bed and I am soon to be there. I miss you Honey, and find that I think of you no matter where I am or what I may be doing. Also, I can say truthfully, I love you............BILL-EE

Slept late, after being awake at six a.m. Getting up at eight fifteen a.m. went back to bed and slept until past ten.      Janelle and J.C. are here. We mostly sat in the kitchen, talked about old times, new times, finally fixed a chicken pot pie (Janelle did). Then we talked some more about alot of things that has happened to us in our life times. I told how we met, Janelle told about how she had disliked Bro. Everett at first. I told about that first letter and how mad it made me. Anyhow we have had a great day, doing nothing but jabber, jabber.         Ben, of course I have talked plenty about you, about our last months together, about your death being nine months ago today. Talked about how much I miss you, Honey. About reliving those last days over and over again.         Camp meeting was great again. Bro. Davidson preached. He preached on "what yo mama knows" it was a great sermon.           It is getting late, I still have to get a shower and shampoo so this will be the note for tonight.        I love you, Ben Miller, and I miss you so much....BILL-EE

I was very late getting here from camp meeting last night,. I was tired and sleepy so I went straight to get ready for bed. I was almost asleep before my head hit the pillow. Naturally, I did not get to write in my blog last night. The only time I have missed a day. I usually would write it early this a.m. I knew I would have company coming in, so I did not take time until just now to write. Janelle and J.C. are here already, they are going to camp meeting with us tonight.         Ben, my thoughts of you are so reliving those last days with you. Remembering all over again how the days were. On the 22nd of Sep  is when. you saw light that morning. I remember how cheerful and chirpy you were. After you got dressed, and we started out of the bedroom you told me "I know I saw light bright and sunny, but now it is all black again". That would be your last full day on this earth. How do I miss you, I cannot tell. I live with the ache of not having you with me, all the time. I miss you I love you...........BILL-EE

It is late, already Thursday 6/21. I am writing note for 6/20. I woke up Wednesday a.m. thinking how your last Wednesday alive you spent in the bedroom. You would sit in your chair, lie on your bed, and ate all three meals in the bedroom. I fixed my meals and ate them up there too. Honey, thinking of those last few weeks brings much pain to me. Especially that last week.           This evening I went to a camp meeting service. Bro. Honea drove the van down. Bro. Wayne Huntley  is the main speaker. A good service tonight. I will go again tomorrow night. That's why I am writing so late.      I got a lot of neck hugs tonight, loved that, as always. Saw Ricky and Darlene, the Clenney's, several other people. I enjoyed seeing the people I don't get to see much of.          I am sleepy and tired so now I will say as usual, I miss you Ben Miller, and I love you...........BILL-EE

I almost "lost" another day. I did get a load of laundry done, folded, put away. I have got to get back "in the groove", this place is needing to be vacuumed, some dusting probably wouldn't hurt. I did get the den vacuumed this afternoon. I felt like I had accomplished something. I know what Ben Miller would say to me, "you worry too much about not having to be working at something". I will get over the cough eventually, and get with it. For a week now I have done very little. I talked to Debbie and Lisa today. I did see where Dialyn called yesterday while I was getting my wallet back home. I meant to call her this evening, but after I ate a bite, I did some breathing exercises. That should help get it all coughed up, I hope. I miss Ben so much, one morning last week I thought I heard him call me. It was not BILL-EE, it was "hey honey". He did sometime call me like that.         Today I have been thinking of his last Tuesday alive. He stayed in bed, at least in the bedroom, until after four o'clock that day. I am dreaming of him alot lately. Honey, I hate the week that is the same, or near the same as your last week. Everything is still so vivid. When I am in our bedroom, I still can see how you would reach for the rail, to stand up. I still remember when you would say I don't feel the rail, I would put your hand on the rail so you could get up. I sometime think I don't believe it, he should be here with me still. Then I again have to pray, Lord help me. I miss you and I love you.........BILL-EE

Posting a new note. I had to go out to Cracker Barrel and retrieve my wallet. Everything was intact. They had put in the safe. Silly me, I thought my purse felt lighter as I was leaving. I was so tired, and so ready to get home and take cough medicine.        I put gas in the car, while I was out. I went to the Blue Plate Diner for a bite to eat. I only ate a couple bites. I just haven't been hungry for the past week.       Nothing else got done around here today. I went back to bed after a small bowl of cereal and devotion. I sure got to stop that business.          I stopped at the cemetery on the way back home. I am going back to bed when I finish writing this, altho it is early. I am needing to take more cough syrup. Ugh, I hate that stuff.      Honey, I miss you and I love you.........BILL-EE

Today I did make it to church. I wasn't really wanting to get up this a.m. I did though.I picked Alisha up for church. I went straight on in the church, as I was coughing really bad. We had a good service. The Halls and I went to the Cracker Barrel for lunch. I still had my gift certificate from Mother's Day. All the men got a certificate from Logan's Steak House today.        You and I would have probably come home to eat a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. I do know how you hated waiting to be seated at a restaurant. Not your favorite thing to do.         After I got home I found my wallet was missing. I knew I had not gotten it back in my purse when I took the certificate out. I had already taken my church clothes off and had taken cough medicine. I sure was not going to drive back out there. I couldn't find my telephone book, so I called Lisa and she called the restaurant. They had already put my wallet in their safe. I just went on to bed for an hour and half. The cough medicine makes me dizzy and drowsy. Honey, I sure did miss you. My first father's day without you. I love you...........BILL-EE

Tomorrow is father's day. We were always together even on father's day. Today has been a tad better for me. Although I had a time getting a hair shampoo and shower. I am still coughing bad, and "spitting it out" I hope.         I am planning to go to church in the a.m. Lord help me to make it. I really didn't realize how weak I had gotten. I have coughed so much that I am terribly sore. Still coughing tho. I plan to get in bed shortly. I have been up since five o'clock p.m. A long time for me.         I even took an antivan last night, thinking I wouldn't wake every hour. Instead of sleeping, I was still awake until after four this morning. I lay awake remembering our days together. remembering every detail of your surgeries and hospital stays. I even wondered if maybe I did you a disservice by always staying with you. If I did it wasn't intentional, my only thought was to help you.          Honey, you wre a great dad, a wonderful hard working husband, and a very good fisherman..I miss you and I love you............BIll-EE

My days without you, Ben, this week has been some dreadful days. I have taken two days of antibiotic. Still coughing steadily.Doctor says if I am not 100 % by Monday he will want a chest x-ray. I am now claiming that I will be over this before Monday. I definitely have not done anything since Tuesday a.m. except to eat, drink, and sleep. These days without you are nothing to write about. I haven't been out of the house but once. I eased down to the mailbox late yesterday. My thoughts are full of you, of how I miss you, of  how I still ache for you. I miss you I love you........BILL-EE  Just started a nose bleed. Here we go again. Pouring.

I slept fiffully last night. I could hear the rattling, in my chest, even as I slept. I did call the doctor's office. He was merciful on me. He sent me an antibiotic to start taking. Thankful I didn't have to go in for shots. Today has been another "lost" day. All I have done is try to force food down and plenty of fluids. I do not ever want to have to take so many fluids, to hydrate my body again. I surely don't want pneumonia again.  So this note will be another short and sweet one.          Of course, my thoughts of my Ben were more than ever, so it seemed. I can say I miss you, Honey, and I love you.             I had to call a neighbor and ask her to pick up the medicine for me. When I got up to dress, so I could get it. I was quite stumbly. I thought it wouldn't be a good idea to go out. The cough medicine makes me dizzy and sleepy. I will be back to normal tomorrow. After two days of mostly sleeping.         I love you, Ben Miller

Today a very early note. It will be short, too. This day without Ben Miller has mostly been in bed. I still have a cough, almost ever breath. I have been up only long enough to eat a few bites of food and drink water or maybe some Dr Pepper. I won't be going to church, don't feel like I could shower and get ready. Tomorrow if not feeling better will call the Doctor. He probably will have me come over for a check. Afraid it will be another steroid shot, and antibioctic. I am taking cough medicine every four hours. Ben I miss you, I don't have anyone saying "you need to lie down". I miss you and I love you.............BILL-EE             P.S. today is Jennifer's birthday. Her first word was Pawpaw. She dearly loved him.       

The day started out good. I did wake up coughing, and I have coughed all day. It seems to have gotten worse in the past few hours so I am writing this note earlier than usual.        Kamilah and I slept in the den last night. She didn't want to go upstairs, in case her mom was able to come for her. She slept on the "small' couch and I slept on the "big" one. We were late going to bed, she stayed awake as long as she possibly could. After breakfast, and devotion time we got ready to go to day care.          When I got home I did so more serious cleaning. Mopping, vacuuming, folding more clothes, and sweeping. I just about have everything back in order.        I  finally ate another good tomato sandwich, yummy. Then I took a nap.Lisa called and woke me. I did get all the garbage to the street. I haven't seen so much garbage in a long time. Even after Tot took so much back to GA, Duane took more back, too. I still had two cans full to haul to the street.         Allison came out here to get Kamilah's car seat. I didn't have to drive back to the day care, so thankful for that.      I really am not feeling the best, still coughing. I will take cough medicine and get in bed soon.          I miss Ben so much. I pray for strength, oh Lord, to keep making the time with smiles. I feel that I still need him to be here with me. So much I need to talk to him about. God help me. Ben Miller, I love you...............BILL-EE

Today has been one to remember. I got up, had breakfast and coffee. Then I started out on the chores. I did a big load of towels, changed the bed Ulmer and Clara slept in. When the towels were finished I put them in the dryer and put sheets in the washer. I checked out the garbage cans to see if there was room for anymore garbage. I did a few other small chores, then fixed myself a good ole tomato sndwich. I got a call from Vickie. She was stranded in Bessemer, she and Zoey, so I went to get them. I got them home and came on back to the house. I got towels out of the dryer put in the sheets. I folded and put the towels all away. I get a call from Allison, could I watch Kamilah. Allison had not had any sleep. I met her at the day care got Kamilah and car seat in my car. Came back home, made food for Kamilah to eat. Got all the sheets folded and put away, Kamalih got a bathe. Allison called, all the lights that way were off. So I still have Kamilah. She didn't need to try to get her and take her to a dark house.        I did have an exciting day. I stopped at the cemetery on my way home after getting Vickie and Zoey home. I miss Ben Miller so much. I love you............BILL-EE

The 80th birthday is gone, altogether now. Duane stayed last night and went to church this morning. Ulmer and Clara had stayed over also. Ulmer preached this a.m. Then we, a whole crew, went out to Bessmer to Raggedy Ann's to eat lunch. Ulmer and Clara left from there to go by her sister's for awhile. They never did get to see Icy. Ulmer didn't say anything, but Clara was quite upset that they didn't get to see her.       Me and Duane came by the cemetery before coming home. We talked for a couple of hours. I decided I was sleepy, so Duane thought he would take a 30 minute nap before starting out. I had just gone to sleep when Claara called to tell me they had to leave without seeing Icy. She has called again since then. I hate they did not get to see her, she is going downhill fast. Clara does so want to see her.           A correct count from the party, 24 neices and nephews, 2 brothers and 2 sister-in-laws, 5 friends, 1 brother 1 sister, children, grands, greats= 15 +me I count 51 total. Not bad for a short invitation. Really had a great time.      Wishing still that you had been here with us. Honey, I know you are in a much better place and that you are happy there. Good sight, good balance, good strangth. How can I possible keep thinking, if only?          I miss you I love you..............BILL-EE

Ben, I sure did miss you today. Knowing how much you always enjoyed having family around. There was 41 of my neices and nephews here, plus Sid and Betty, Ulmer and Clara, Bro Honea, Heidi, and Jennifer Moser. Counting myself there were 49 people here today. Tot and Deb brought too much  food. Tot actually bought for 60 people. Not near as many as we had at your 80th party. Still, it was such a great day. I did miss you, I kept thinking how Ben would have loved this day.        I am rather worn out tonight so I am about to get a shower and get in bed. I miss you and I love you...........BILL-EE

Another busy, busy, day. I cleaned the bath rooms, mopped them, and vacuumed the hallway again. Got my hair shampooed. Washed the white part of the outside wall. I had been needing to do that for a long while, so today I decided it is time to get it done.I was just finishing that job when Debbie drove up. She had Luke and Sydney with her. We ate and drank a milk shake. Ulmer and Clara came in. They are spending the night. Tot came on down so he can help Debbie with the two babies, he got them a motel room. Of course Clara had to watch a Braves game. Before that Debbie had gotten us all a meal from the All Star Diner.       I talked to Tammy and Vickie this evening, and also to Linda Holifield. Now it is eleven thirty and I still have to have a shower. Whoa! I feel like I have been around the loop. I have missed you, as always, my Ben and Honey I love you............BILL-EE

I stopped by the cemetery today. I tood a red flower and stuck in the vase of flowers. The only way I can put anything is to put it in the vase.       I didn't get up until about nine o'clock, took medicine, dressed for going out. I ate half a breakfast bar and drank half a cup of coffee.      I left home about ten-thirty, making good time. When I got on 65 south about 4th avenue exit traffic was backed up. It took me twenty minutes to get to Green Springs exit. I exited off there and drove on to 31 south down Green Springs. It was eleven twenty when I got to the the Golden Corral for the luncheon.      Harold Kelly was the first person I saw, he asked me did I have a birthday in June, I told him I did yesterday. I put those big sun glasses on sis Brenda gave me last night to wear. He loved them, told me to wear them on into the room, which I did. I ate a good lunch. There was 29 people there, most of  your ole cronies were there. Bruce, Mac, David the guys from West Blocton.       I came by and visited with Icy for awhile, then did some shopping at Wal Mart, groceries mostly.       Jared called a few minutes after I left the house. I just listened to my messages. He is going to wash the house for me.        Oh, yeah Debbie had called again and messaged. I need to check my phone as soon as I come in, don't always remember to do so.       Even when I stay busy I miss you. Always aware that my Ben is gone from me. I mopped the kitchen tonight, about to get everything ready for the "party". I miss you and I love you.............BILL-EE

80th birthday. We had a great church service. After service we had a birthday party for me. Wow! there was some more good food, a beautiful cake, chocolate and vanilla ice cream. It was all very humbling to me. Even had gifts, which I was not expecting.        Today I got the furniture polished and the carpets vacuumed. All in all the day was marvelous. As my Honey always said it was fan-tab-u-lous.         I had so many birthday greetings on facebook, I was definitely not thinking about that many greetings. After all, how many people, at 80, drives themselves any place they chose to go. I am the most blessed person on the planet.        Of course, I had a ball!!!! Bro Honea asked me if I came alone to church. Lisa had come over and gone with me (I was surprised and very happy, grateful that she did). She told him "no, she was with me". He said he wondered if maybe I had stopped for a "drink" or something.hahaha  For the people who knows me, you know how, I can enjoy just being with people,           The sloppy joe's were so good. Honey, David reminded me that you ate not 3 but 4 joe's last time we had them. I truly missed your not being with me on this special day.          I miss you I love you, Ben Miller.............BILL-EE.................. I had a call from Gat-Lynn Webb wishing me a happy birthday. He was the guy that always took you in the church on Sundays and Wednesday nights. He is in LA since he graduated from school.  Love

After I got in bed last night I began to think of you. Thinking how much I miss you. It caused so much pain, I can not explain how I feel, except that I ache in my heart. I feel like screaming, I feel like I wish I could run far away from the pain. I had been hoping that kind of ache was over, I hadn't felt it in several days. I do know I still grieve for you. I grieve for the the many things I miss, like sitting in your lap. You would wrap your arms around me and hold me tight. I miss rubbing your head as I pass by your chair. I miss how I would kiss you, and hear you say, "what's that for", Oh just because I love you, Ben Miller. I miss hearing you say, "well make that lip-o-lated".           Today I got the living room shined and vacuumed. I folded most of the clothes before I went to bed last night. I folded the silk items today and have them all put away. I even took frozen items from the freezer and heated them up for my evening meal. Made a small pan of corn bread to eat with my limas and turnips. I miss you, Ben Miller and I love you...........BILL-EE

When I think of all that I miss about our lives. Most of all, the smile that w a s Ben Miller. Yes, I miss that smile, I wonder how many times I saw the smile when he didn't feel like giving it. I miss getting him out of bed in the mornings, sometimes it could be a little hectic, but all in all it was a great accomplishment for two people. Last year it wasn't always easy but we made it. I miss the many trips we made up and down the stairs together.....always together. I miss the praising the Lord I heard from my dear husband when we went to church. I miss hearing the music in the evenings, that was playing in our house. I miss the many times I would hear "I thank you Jesus". The times I would hear praying, I would ask, "what did you say" the answer would be, "oh, I am just talking to the Lord". So much I could say about things I miss. I'm sure I am repeating myself on most if not all of these. I miss the life I had with the greatest man I ever knew.       Now, about my day. I have done a load of laundry, that's about it. Janell and J.C. didn't leave until two o'clock. J.C. went fishing with pastor Honea. They caught 64 fish, bass, brem. blue gills, and I don't know what if any other kind. They plan to fish again on May 23rd and have a fish fry after church on Sunday 24th of June. I enjoy their visit, I told them it gives me something to look forward to.            I love you, Honey, and I do miss so many things about our lives. I miss our togetherness, our talks, so much I miss........BILL-EE

Today, Sunday, got up got ready for church. We left the house, went by McDonald's for a gravy  biscuit, then drove on by Lisa's house. We sat there blowing the horn, no Lisa. We finally went on down to the church. Lo, and behold, Lisa was sitting there. Her neighbor had driven her by, unbeknowst to me.         We, of course, ate at the chinese restaurant. Not my choice, but that is where Bro. Honea usually will go. When we got home, we lay down, I had just gone to sleep when the telephone rings, it is Lisa. She thought it was time for church again. The way things go when you pick someone up for church. I know the Lord has His hand on this girl's life, and I do know He impressed me to ask her if she wanted to go to church. Also to tell her I could pick her up. So it goes. The kind of day my dear husband Ben Miller, always loved.          I think of you so many times when we have services like these.        We went to Jack's. of all places, tonight after church. We still got home by nine o'clock. We start church at five on Sundays.          Ben Miller, I love you and I miss you much............BILL-EE

We got up this a.m., I cooked biscuits, eggs, bacon, and grits, We had grape, apple, strawberry, blackberry and peach jelly and jams. We were all quite full and satisfied. We being me, Janelle, and Bro  J.C.         I shampooed my hair, we got dressed. All of a sudden I got very sleepy, so I lay down for about an hour and half. I was very hungry wheeeeen I woke up. By this time it is close to two o'clock. I thought we had two hours before the baby shower. Turned out we didn't, we got to the church a little past four, shower was over. The parents to be were gone, as was most everyone else.       We, Janelle and I, sat around visiting with the clean up folks. The prospective parents came back to the church, Jared dropped by. Had quite a visit there. When we got back home, we sat around until a litle past six o'clock, then we went to the All Star Diner and had supper.          After we got home from eating I looked up a web site to find something Bro Raggio had posted. I finally found it and made a correction to something I had printed. While looking for the poem, I found songs the Raggios' had sang, plus a recent one Bro Raggio had sung. I enjoyed looking at and listening to the songs. Honey, you would have so enjoyed that singing.         On our way back home I asked  Janelle If she would mind if I stopped at the cemetery. So I made that stop before coming home. Oh, Ben Honey, I miss you so and dear one I love you..........BILL-EE

It is about to be bed time. Honey, I have talked about you alot this evening. Janell and J.C. got here about two thirty. Bro Honea had just a few minutes before drove up with the new couch and chair. He was having to unload by himself. He had it almost in the house, but was struggling with it. Didn't come thru the door easily. Then they drove up, so J.C. helped him get it on in the room. I am happy it finally has all come together. I told Bro Honea to be sure and take a look at the new den. He liked it, he said looks like a den, for sure. I kind of got the chairs like I wanted them, for now. Everything looks great.          Of course, Janelle and I had to talk about the "good ole days" at Bible Tabernacle. She talked about how you could walk up anywhere and really join in. No matter who may be in the crowd. J.C. wanted to know if you were anything like Ulmer. You were you, not really much like anyone I ever knew. Guess I would say more like Milton, if anyone.         I saw where I had gotten a call from Milton's phone yesterday. It would have been about the time Lisa and the guys got here. I am sorry I can't visit Icy more, it's not that I don't want to, I just can't handle the dog. I got sick after my last time there. Guess I will have to tell her, but I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. I sure don't expect Dale to get rid of his dog, as if he would. He really loves his dog.        I am going to get a shower and go to bed. I promised them a good breakfast tomorrow a.m. then we have a busy day. I miss you, Ben Miller, and I love you............BILL-EE